Sunday, July 31, 2011

3 Months

Ephram is a quarter of a year old! Insane! He's changed so much. I was looking at some pictures from the week after he was born and was shocked by how much bigger he is.

  • He's been rolling onto his side. Not all the way over yet, and that's a-ok with me!

  • Loves having someone right in his face talking and making eye contact with him

  • Sleeping in the nursery

  • Wakes up only once during the night

  • Watching Jeremiah play is a favorite pat time

  • Likes looking at books

  • Splashes during bathtime

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Mommy Brain

I took Jeremiah to the pediatrician this morning. He had been running a low grade fever and last night during bath time he would cry every time water got in his ears. I went to check him and this is the conversation the receptionist and I had...

Receptionist: What's his birthday?
Me: I said April 24, 2009.
R sounding a little confused :What's his name?
Me: Jeremiah
R: Is his birthday April 17, 2009?
Me: No, that's his brother's, Ephram, birthday.

She looked really confused at this point. I then realize that I told her Jeremiah's birthday was on the 24 which is Matt's birthday and Ephram's birthday was the 17 when that's Jeremiah's birthday. I laugh and tell her that my husband and two sons all have their birthdays within a week. I then give her Jeremiah's correct birthday. Maybe I need to start drinking coffee!

Friday, July 15, 2011

Mommy Guilt

I thought I knew what "mommy guilt" was. Having Ephram opened my eyes to a whole new relm of guilt! I feel guilty for not playing enough with Jeremiah. I feel guilty about leaving Ephram in his bouncer while I play with Jeremiah. I feel guilty that I can't keep up with my house, laundry and dishes the way I was used to. I feel guilty that by the time Matt gets home I'm so tried and covered in spit up and Jeremiah's lunch that I don't care about his day. I feel guilty over the many projects I've started and haven't been able to finish. I feel guilty over the small amount of time I make to spend with the Lord. I feel guilty for wasting the "free time" I get. I could go on, but you get the idea. Guilt. Lots of it.

Matt's been such an encouragement to me as I've shared my struggles with him. He gave me freedom from some of the guilt by telling me he does not care about the house being clean. I still keep it picked up, but I'm not freaking out about when I vacuumed last. Trust me, you don't want to know when that was. Honestly, I don't know either. He's been amazing about getting home from work and hitting the ground running to give me a break. Literally! Jeremiah would play chase with his daddy all day!

There's a new song, Everything You Do by Steven Curtis Champan that's been encouraging to me. Helps me get my focus on what my priorities need to be and how the other stuff isn't that important. Here's the first verse and chores of the song

You’re picking up toys on the living room floor
for the 15th time today
Matching up socks and sweeping up lost
Cheerios that got away
You put a baby on your hip and color on your lips
and head out the door
And while I may not know you I bet I know you
Wonder sometimes does it matter at all
We’ll let me remind you it all matters just as long as you

Do everything you do to the glory of the One who made you
Cause He made you to do
Every little thing that you do to bring a smile to His face
And tell the story of grace
With every move that you make
And every little thing you do

I just stumbled across a blog that dealt with this. I was so refreshed by the blog. To be reminded of the value in what I'm doing by being a Momma, because this is what I've been called to do. It's not an easy calling, more times then not it's pretty darn scary! But through God's grace my boys and I make it through each day. And I learn a little more about how to be the Momma God created me to be.

Thursday, July 7, 2011


  • We were driving home one night and Matt and I hear a fart from the back seat. We both look at each other because it did not sound like that could come from a little boy. In the back eat Jeremiah is just staring out the window. When we asked him what that noise was he looked at us with huge eyes, like he couldn't believe we were asking him that. He promptly said"Da baby did it!" I couldn't stop laughing! 2 years old and already blaming his little brother!

  • I was nursing and Jeremiah started trolling for a snack. It got very quiet in the kitchen, never a good sign. I walk into the kitchen to find Jeremiah sitting on the floor holding the open container of Quick and a spoon. He scooped up a spoonful of Quick, ate and proclaimed it "dewishish!" (delicious).

  • During nap time I was working in my room. I turn around and see Jeremiah walking to me (whenever he wakes up he come to find me or Matt). He put his hands up by his face and said "Tada!" I picked him up and he feel right back to sleep, awesome trick!

Say My Name

Friday, July 1, 2011

4 Year Anniversary

Yesterday was Matt and my 4 year anniversary. Here are some pictures that Matt thought of asking my sister to take. I love that we have some new pictures of just the two of us! I get so focused on getting pictures of the boys that I forget about Matt and me. I feel like these pictures really capture our relationship.